The “now me” remembered the “past me” today and I felt so tender for her today.
Back then, I wanted to draw the shades, crawl under the covers and watch cat videos.
THAT was all I had energy for.
Things started piling up on me. It was heavy.
The overwhelm and anxiety closing in on me.
Then came the crushing weight of self-loathing (good times).
I lost trust in myself,
and started questioning EVERYTHING and not in a fun, wondrous way.
-more like in a – everyone and everything is out to get me, they are taking advantage of me, I better watch out, this job is making me sick, they think I’m _______(not good, lazy, unprofessional,-add yours), powerless, victim-y sort of way. EEKs!
Paralyzed
I was severely in debt with no idea how to get out,
Energy debt, Time debt, Resource debt.
It spread to my relationships, my body, my finances…
Think about it though- that’s normal. When you are in burnout, overwhelm, and feel stuck, your brain gets stuck in this very negative space It’s hard to access any possible solutions. You feel hopeless
This was a HUGE PROBLEM…in the pit of my stomach
until-
it wasn’t.
I reached out, I got support,
I committed to feeling better
It was hard…
but hey, living with soul crushing exhaustion and dread? -way harder…
I got myself out (with the help of my coach)
I started making decisions- on purpose
One. Decision.
Then another
That’s how you get out of debt.
It starts getting easier and it’s not this HUGE insurmountable issue anymore.
Relief is possible
Love,
Angie
Make one decision. Take action. Start there. Send up a flare if you need a little more help than that.
